And a must read...
The Internal Clitoris
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moi
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
um...really? again?
*sigh*...it's raining...again. We'll all be living in swampland soon methinks. Actually, I love the rain. I just worry a bit since the seeping I had a couple of summers ago. The past 2 years have been fine but I do need to look into getting the gutters replaced soon. Deck work as well. Ugh. I just am so tired of having to be the one to make sure everything gets fixed/updated/repaired. Some days I really want someone else to deal with all of this stuff. I loved that about hubby; he was good all sorts of minor house repairs and taking the time to research people to do work on the house if need be. Blech. I just want $20k to pop into my bank account so I can just call whomever to come fix everything and be done with it. I am really good at procrastinating for starters and then wanting to spend my $$ on other things. *sigh*
My family has survived round 1 of Irene. Seems round 2 will be of lesser impact so all is well. Except the water. If ever one contemplates beauty in power...or power in beauty...water definitely is both.
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moi
My family has survived round 1 of Irene. Seems round 2 will be of lesser impact so all is well. Except the water. If ever one contemplates beauty in power...or power in beauty...water definitely is both.
(photo courtesy of hurricane Irene)
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moi
Saturday, August 27, 2011
my altered ego
Earlier this month we had our yearly "big kink event". It was great. The two presenters were David Masterson/OkieNawa and Ms. Cynthia. OMG was I in heaven. Here's a pic of something I created that afternoon during the vampirism and blood lust presentation *grin*.
This was taken after we were finished and Isis was all cleaned up. I had a grand time making flower pics with her blood and punching and poking the cuts. I had to be careful about punching too hard cause I was making blood splatter and there were people sitting pretty close to us.
I made the cuts using a small scalpel, a size 15 I would guess. You can see the one on the farthest right is a bit deeper than the rest. That was my first cut. Amazing how sharp those little buggers are. In the center of her chest where it's a bit swollen is where I used the dermal punch. It was a great high for both of us and afterward we were goofing on all the other artwork we could create *wink*.
The floor work class David did was awesome. If you ever get the chance to see him do this class...go. And his model had the best whimper and moans. It was hot.
After the presentations we had dinner and then the dungeon opened. I didn't play for a while; was debating if I was in the mood or not. One gal had emailed me a day or so before the event and asked if I would play with her. I told her I probably could since my only line-up was my friend M and our time usually runs about 1/2 hr - 45 mins depending but I hadn't decided if I was going to play with him either. Roomie was in the mood to play but I was in a different mind set and while I am glad he wanted to get out and play, it was last minute and I couldn't wrap my head around sensual play when my head was jacked up on blood and scalpels *grin*
What eventually got me motivated was being told to quit socializing on the dungeon floor (which I do have a habit of doing) but then this person ended up doing the same along with several other people taking up 1/2 the dungeon floor. Idiots. After that I had to blow off some steam so I figured it was a good time to get the floggers and other fun stuff out. I have this really fun toy a local Dom made that I bought a few months ago. Here's a pic (I stole from his sub's fetlife page cause I don't have a pic of my own right now).
So I told "L" I was ready to play with her. I mostly spanked, bit, scratched, rollered, tickled and as I smelled her get aroused, I started to pull on her panties stuck in between her ass checks and eventually I made her "O" on the spanking horse. That was a nice bit of unexpectedness...LOL. After playing with her and settling down I went to play with "M" along with a new gal. So it was a bit of a teaching and playing time. My favorite thing to do with "M" is when he starts getting worked up he started to talk and try to analyze things so I hit him really hard to shut him up. He likes to try and figure out what's going to happen next. Paddle, flogger, cane, etc. Having another help in his demise was fun because he had a hard time figuring out what was next because I would stand and face him from behind the cross as she would do whatever to him. he he he.
I definitely had a great time. Learned a bit more about my sadistic side and becoming more comfortable with it. I love it but since it's not "the usual" for women I still have some mindsets to get over.
Here's a link to some other pictures from playing the past couples of months.
Well, I'm done for tonight. I is tired!!!
ta ta
moi
This was taken after we were finished and Isis was all cleaned up. I had a grand time making flower pics with her blood and punching and poking the cuts. I had to be careful about punching too hard cause I was making blood splatter and there were people sitting pretty close to us.
I made the cuts using a small scalpel, a size 15 I would guess. You can see the one on the farthest right is a bit deeper than the rest. That was my first cut. Amazing how sharp those little buggers are. In the center of her chest where it's a bit swollen is where I used the dermal punch. It was a great high for both of us and afterward we were goofing on all the other artwork we could create *wink*.
The floor work class David did was awesome. If you ever get the chance to see him do this class...go. And his model had the best whimper and moans. It was hot.
After the presentations we had dinner and then the dungeon opened. I didn't play for a while; was debating if I was in the mood or not. One gal had emailed me a day or so before the event and asked if I would play with her. I told her I probably could since my only line-up was my friend M and our time usually runs about 1/2 hr - 45 mins depending but I hadn't decided if I was going to play with him either. Roomie was in the mood to play but I was in a different mind set and while I am glad he wanted to get out and play, it was last minute and I couldn't wrap my head around sensual play when my head was jacked up on blood and scalpels *grin*
What eventually got me motivated was being told to quit socializing on the dungeon floor (which I do have a habit of doing) but then this person ended up doing the same along with several other people taking up 1/2 the dungeon floor. Idiots. After that I had to blow off some steam so I figured it was a good time to get the floggers and other fun stuff out. I have this really fun toy a local Dom made that I bought a few months ago. Here's a pic (I stole from his sub's fetlife page cause I don't have a pic of my own right now).
So I told "L" I was ready to play with her. I mostly spanked, bit, scratched, rollered, tickled and as I smelled her get aroused, I started to pull on her panties stuck in between her ass checks and eventually I made her "O" on the spanking horse. That was a nice bit of unexpectedness...LOL. After playing with her and settling down I went to play with "M" along with a new gal. So it was a bit of a teaching and playing time. My favorite thing to do with "M" is when he starts getting worked up he started to talk and try to analyze things so I hit him really hard to shut him up. He likes to try and figure out what's going to happen next. Paddle, flogger, cane, etc. Having another help in his demise was fun because he had a hard time figuring out what was next because I would stand and face him from behind the cross as she would do whatever to him. he he he.
I definitely had a great time. Learned a bit more about my sadistic side and becoming more comfortable with it. I love it but since it's not "the usual" for women I still have some mindsets to get over.
Here's a link to some other pictures from playing the past couples of months.
Well, I'm done for tonight. I is tired!!!
ta ta
moi
rain, rain go away...I'm pickled pink
Apparently this is the year of water. I just got off the phone with my mom to make sure she plugs in her cellphone and has fresh water tucked away due to hurricane Irene. I have done my parental duties...LOL.
My folks live about an hour north of NYC along the Hudson but they are up the side of a mountain. Although where they live has poor drainage so they may get some water damage in addition to wind damage. They've been doing work on their property to raise the backyard, put in additional drainage stuff, new driveway, etc. to help with the water problem. Hopefully they can get that all finished soon before winter sets in and it all freezes. Yuk.
In all honesty, I had forgotten about the hurricane; we had discussed it at work due to people having family on the east coast although I got caught up with a hectic work week that I forgot to touch base with my family. My SD sent me a text asking about them and I realized...oops, forgot to check in on them!!
We've definitely had our fair share of water related "activities" here in the US, that's for sure. Flooding in the midwest and now major hurricane on east coast. Oh, and other random icky things like earthquakes in areas that don't get earthquakes. I'm appreciating where I live very much right now.
I'm watching the weather channel to see what's going on with Irene. Just amazing. Never in my lifetime has NYC been affected like it is now. Evacuations, mass transit stopping, etc. Of course the entire eastern seaboard is on lock down...but NYC...the city that never sleeps. I can't imagine it. Mother Nature is one hell of a force...that's for sure!! I've been in hurricanes before but this is HUGE compared to what I've experienced. And we've always lived in areas that weren't seaboard either. In Mass we were just south of Boston and in NY about 45 mins north of NYC. Far enough away to miss the nastier stuff.
As for life...it's pretty good. I'm trying to get back into taking care of me rather than every one else. I get so caught up in "fixing" others or making sure they are ok, etc. that I forget me. Well, I do that when I'm avoiding "me" stuff. Time to remember me now and let other people learn to take care of their own stuff. Or, stay away from trying to help them with their stuff. Thankfully the drama in my life isn't mine so I can put it away, not answer it, etc. when I don't want to. I just have to realize that I don't need drama in general. I can have peace and quiet and have life be about "ME". I haven't done any journal writing, gratitude writing, reading, etc. for quite some time and I'm feeling the effects. So...time to hitch up the suspenders and get my ass in gear to live my life again. I have to remember that I am worth so much more than I give myself credit for and it shows with the type of people I attract, etc. Although I do have to say that work is going quite well and I've very thankful for that. Was employee of the month and that's saying something...I rock. Then again I've always been pretty confident and comfortable in the work place. It's just my personal life right now that's taking a hit. My own self imposed stasis. I really need to get over myself, that's for sure...
and I'm horny. OMG...tragedy!! Although I'm working on fixing that; we'll have to see how that goes. Or rather, if it comes to pass. It's my vanilla lover I met a couple of summers ago. We go off and on and hopefully this is an ON period cause I'm so ready...LOL. At least I've dug myself out of the "I don't need a relationship/someone special/etc." mindset so even if he doesn't pan out [sexually] I've been kinda working on figuring out how to get back into the "dating" groove. Or whatever you want to call it. I just know that I have NEEDS and damn it, they need fulfilling and sexting just doesn't cut it...LOL
peace, back to reading for a bit
ta ta
moi
My folks live about an hour north of NYC along the Hudson but they are up the side of a mountain. Although where they live has poor drainage so they may get some water damage in addition to wind damage. They've been doing work on their property to raise the backyard, put in additional drainage stuff, new driveway, etc. to help with the water problem. Hopefully they can get that all finished soon before winter sets in and it all freezes. Yuk.
In all honesty, I had forgotten about the hurricane; we had discussed it at work due to people having family on the east coast although I got caught up with a hectic work week that I forgot to touch base with my family. My SD sent me a text asking about them and I realized...oops, forgot to check in on them!!
We've definitely had our fair share of water related "activities" here in the US, that's for sure. Flooding in the midwest and now major hurricane on east coast. Oh, and other random icky things like earthquakes in areas that don't get earthquakes. I'm appreciating where I live very much right now.
I'm watching the weather channel to see what's going on with Irene. Just amazing. Never in my lifetime has NYC been affected like it is now. Evacuations, mass transit stopping, etc. Of course the entire eastern seaboard is on lock down...but NYC...the city that never sleeps. I can't imagine it. Mother Nature is one hell of a force...that's for sure!! I've been in hurricanes before but this is HUGE compared to what I've experienced. And we've always lived in areas that weren't seaboard either. In Mass we were just south of Boston and in NY about 45 mins north of NYC. Far enough away to miss the nastier stuff.
As for life...it's pretty good. I'm trying to get back into taking care of me rather than every one else. I get so caught up in "fixing" others or making sure they are ok, etc. that I forget me. Well, I do that when I'm avoiding "me" stuff. Time to remember me now and let other people learn to take care of their own stuff. Or, stay away from trying to help them with their stuff. Thankfully the drama in my life isn't mine so I can put it away, not answer it, etc. when I don't want to. I just have to realize that I don't need drama in general. I can have peace and quiet and have life be about "ME". I haven't done any journal writing, gratitude writing, reading, etc. for quite some time and I'm feeling the effects. So...time to hitch up the suspenders and get my ass in gear to live my life again. I have to remember that I am worth so much more than I give myself credit for and it shows with the type of people I attract, etc. Although I do have to say that work is going quite well and I've very thankful for that. Was employee of the month and that's saying something...I rock. Then again I've always been pretty confident and comfortable in the work place. It's just my personal life right now that's taking a hit. My own self imposed stasis. I really need to get over myself, that's for sure...
and I'm horny. OMG...tragedy!! Although I'm working on fixing that; we'll have to see how that goes. Or rather, if it comes to pass. It's my vanilla lover I met a couple of summers ago. We go off and on and hopefully this is an ON period cause I'm so ready...LOL. At least I've dug myself out of the "I don't need a relationship/someone special/etc." mindset so even if he doesn't pan out [sexually] I've been kinda working on figuring out how to get back into the "dating" groove. Or whatever you want to call it. I just know that I have NEEDS and damn it, they need fulfilling and sexting just doesn't cut it...LOL
peace, back to reading for a bit
ta ta
moi
Friday, June 10, 2011
It's all relative...pain, pleasure...was it good for you?
One of my quirky fun things to do is to wax the personal bits of my friends. At least those that are willing *wink*. While I am as "nice" as one can be when ripping out a person's pubic or ball hairs, it's just too much fun to take every advantage I can of my poor victim. And for me it's not about making it into a whole big session; just waxing is good for me. I used to do Kevin's pubes but since his work schedule has changed we haven't worked out a new ripping schedule. He is fun to do since he's a pain slut. Although even those little bitty masochists say owie!! when you rip those hairs out *grin*.
Last night I had A over last evening for a fun and hair raising...er...ripping...good time. She is fun to tease. I get such a blast out of giving her a hard time when she's lying spread-legged on my massage table. Wanna feel vulnerable? Plucking out one single hair from her labia lips. Slapping the strip before pulling it when it's lying across her vagina. That is just fucking fun. Yet by the time I was finished, not only was she neatly hair free in all the appropriate places, she was creamy and squishy. Mmmmmmmmmmmmm...and people say I'm mean...sheesh. What is up with that?
Tomorrow night is one of our monthly demo/play parties. It's about 45 mins away but an easy drive. Pet has to work so may be late. Hard to say sometimes. It should be a blast though. Last month I had too much fun poking my finger into various places. I also had one of the guys flog me with a simple rawhide strip flogger of his that I was oogling and drooling over. It was massively awesome. I need one. I also need someone I can really whale on too. It's hard to contain my evil side sometimes when it wants to come out.
He he he...come...he he he. Reminds me of a good conversation I had this afternoon about various and sundry things such as cum, wrestling, jello wrestling, face sitting, ass worship, good books, good movies and all around good conversation. And...dum dum dum...married. I really need to fix my relationship seeking radar...LOL. Although for poking around CollarMe this week for the first time in months (hunting down pics of a friend) I'd say it wasn't such a bad thing. The laundry list guys are starting to send messages but imagine this...I'm ignoring them!!
ta ta
moi
Last night I had A over last evening for a fun and hair raising...er...ripping...good time. She is fun to tease. I get such a blast out of giving her a hard time when she's lying spread-legged on my massage table. Wanna feel vulnerable? Plucking out one single hair from her labia lips. Slapping the strip before pulling it when it's lying across her vagina. That is just fucking fun. Yet by the time I was finished, not only was she neatly hair free in all the appropriate places, she was creamy and squishy. Mmmmmmmmmmmmm...and people say I'm mean...sheesh. What is up with that?
Tomorrow night is one of our monthly demo/play parties. It's about 45 mins away but an easy drive. Pet has to work so may be late. Hard to say sometimes. It should be a blast though. Last month I had too much fun poking my finger into various places. I also had one of the guys flog me with a simple rawhide strip flogger of his that I was oogling and drooling over. It was massively awesome. I need one. I also need someone I can really whale on too. It's hard to contain my evil side sometimes when it wants to come out.
He he he...come...he he he. Reminds me of a good conversation I had this afternoon about various and sundry things such as cum, wrestling, jello wrestling, face sitting, ass worship, good books, good movies and all around good conversation. And...dum dum dum...married. I really need to fix my relationship seeking radar...LOL. Although for poking around CollarMe this week for the first time in months (hunting down pics of a friend) I'd say it wasn't such a bad thing. The laundry list guys are starting to send messages but imagine this...I'm ignoring them!!
ta ta
moi
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