clouds...again, blech

It's become a contest between my friends back home and me here as to who's getting more rain...LOL. Sad how exciting my life can be, n'est ce pas?

I managed to get an appt this afternoon to see the dentist. Just so I can get started on what needs to be done to fix my lost crown. LOL, the Queen has lost her crown. Yes, I'm still tired.

I need a grass hut, sand and some sun. Fuck this working for a living crap.

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moi

I'm going insomnia!!

Argh!! I've had a light case of insomnia for about 2 weeks now. Too much crap on my mind I'm sure, allowing things to get overwhelming, etc. Oh well, this too shall pass.

OMG, funny. And stupid. So, my SD leaves her cellphone where ever. If she's in the family room, she leaves it on the couch or the recliner chair. Which means it can fall to the floor, get stuck behind the cushions, etc. Then she freaks because she can't find it. The other day she apparently left it in the recliner chair. And it fell through to the floor or between the moving parts. Either way I walked into the family room and she was in tears. I was on the phone so figured I'd find out eventually what the problem was. Turns out her cellphone got crushed under the reclining chair. I was like, ok. She wrote on her FB page something about it "ending up" under the recliner and "someone" crushed it. Yeah, she left it in the chair and she was the one sitting in the chair that whole day as well. Except later in the evening when I sat there for a few minutes and then Miss M for a few minutes. So legitimately one of us could have crushed it.

Anyway, she was devastated. She can't get to her "people"...hahahahahaha, that makes me laugh really hard and I know I shouldn't but I can't help it...her people. The phone works but the screen is cracked so she can't read what's on it. She didn't save any of her info to the SIM chip so there's no way to retrieve the data without repairing the phone or downloading it if the phone has the capability. She's thinking now that she's going to get another job, save money and get the phone fixed so she can get to her "people". OMG, that makes me fucking laugh still. I was like, ok. Whatever. I asked if maybe she would consider getting the hole in my wall downstairs fixed first? You know, priorities and responsibilities? Nah, she says it just needs to be done before I sell but her people *snicker* are top priority. OMG, talk about a baby blanket. Oh well.

She saw the psychiatrist Monday. She didn't feel my SD needed meds at this point in time but does think there is depression and with her family history wants to see her about every 8 weeks, especially after school starts. The SD starts individual therapy next Tuesday. I have paperwork for Miss M and myself as well for if we do family therapy and individual for Miss M as well. She doesn't have the history of dysfunction that my stepkids had with their mom, grandmother, etc. but she has suffered the loss of her dad and her best friend just moved this summer so I just want to make sure all is well with my mini me.

So I've been running on 1/2 full lately and just no energy to post much. Although I have been busy'ish. Of course torturing my favorite-ist friend johnny for starters. And this weekend I'm meeting a local couple that are swingers. Not so much for him but her. Well, him the kink of watching and not being able to participate *grin*. Had a webcam mutual orgasm fest a couple of weeks ago with a vanilla friend, which is really not my usual modis operandi *grin*, and have been chatting with a local dom that's interested in experiencing being on the bottom. I'm sure there's more...LOL.

Ripped up the piece of carpet that was destroyed by the water seeping in downstairs. Left the padding for now since it's not a natural fiber and then sprayed the whole area with bleach. Managed to get the old carpet out to curb for pickup too so it wasn't sitting around for days. The 4th was mediocre. Did a few fireworks but it was rainy...blech. My oldest SD took the girls out to see fireworks Fri & then on Sat. Sunday they went to a pool party and enjoyed lighting of fireworks as well.

Oh yeah, lost a fucking crown this evening. Back tooth thankfully but even so...*sigh*. See, it's these things...these things that happen and add up and all I see is $$$ signs and I get overwhelmed and get myself in a minor panic worrying about how I'll fix this, how much to fix that. When will I ever be able to fix it? Will I ever be able to fix it? Etc, etc, etc. At least for ye olde teeth I have my flex spending account so that's all good...*phew*!! Just a matter of when I can get in to get the work started.

Oh well. Me tired. Me off to bed...

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moi

Happy HNT & Happy 4th of July

Figured I'd kill two birds with one stone *wink*. I've been super busy at work the past two weeks and in the evenings I've been allowing the kids to use my PC. I often will take my laptop to my room if they use my desktop but the past week or so I haven't been in the mood. I'm kinda tired, a bit of insomnia the past week, plus errands after work, etc. Been kickin' back with my feet up and just lounging. And playing Peggle...LOL

As for HNT, I'm spending my time ogling this lovely chica...nummmmmmmm...

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moi

interesting reading...kid shit and subbie? me? LOL

A friend sent me a link to this yesterday. Chapter 11 of Napoleon Hill's "Think and Grow Rich" book. I have the book myself although have not yet read it. What I found interesting, and of course the reason my friend sent it to me, was the fact that it discusses focused sexual energy. Which of course brings to mind male chastity as well as transcendence through sexual energy. Note also one of my favorite books in relation to the aspect of sexual energy; Radical Ecstasy: SM Journeys into Transcendence which I'm thinking I'm going to pick up and read again this weekend. I think those who use chastity/are in chastity or recognize their sexual energy will find it an interesting read. Granted it's all about the male sexual energy but then again, any energy is worth harnessing and making good use of, n'est ce pas?

Argh, need a time out. Count to 3. SD being annoying. Stupid bitch. She's taken to using my computer now to make up for her reduced texting and so I asked her yesterday to do a chore for me before she leaves today. Earlier I reminded her that I had asked her to please get it done before she leaves and she said she can't get it done today. I told her that I asked specifically that it get done as I was going to steam vac the lower steps today. She said, well I can do it later and I said never mind, I will do it as I want to finish what I need to get done. She said why can't you do it tomorrow and I said because I want it finished by the weekend so I don't have to worry about it. Of course she said I never told her that I wanted it done before she left today. I think it's time to make lists for her. Then there will be no question of who said what and when. It will be posted to her bedroom door. And, I guess this means I will have to keep ye olde wireless USB key pulled out of my PC considering she had plenty of time to lie in bed almost all day yesterday but yet can find time to use my computer, etc. Oh, and bitch because I didn't make her dinner last night? Um, here we go again...duh, you weren't home and didn't indicate when you would be home? Oh well. Done ranting. She'll be out most of the weekend for which I am grateful. For now, I'm off to vacuum the stairs.

Wow, vacuuming the downstairs and the steps took me like, OMG, 10 minutes!! I can't believe it too so long. I'll go steam vac in a bit, waiting for stain solution to set for a bit.

Excellent link alert!! Super Underwear Perverts (hubba hubba...lots of pics so takes a while to completely load). My favorite-ist friend sent me that as well.

I was chatting with a sub friend this morning. We catch up here and there although at the moment I avoid many who just enjoy chatting because I might say something that's "Female Supremacy" related or could be construed as D/s and me "dominating" them, blah, blah, blah. At the time I was also in an IM chat with my boss at work and reading an email. So I didn't catch something he wrote and so there were a few moments of confusion while I tried to figure out what I might have missed or misunderstood. After my questions, he said something to me about how I was being subbie. Cracked me up cause I had a conversation the other day with another friend about how I was into a do-me mode. I explained to him that it's not so much about me turning sub, it's about me wanting to have my needs met. Making the effort to avoid helping others so much, being supportive, etc. and saying "Stop, you need a time out". Do for me, whatever it is "ME" wants. Of course when "ME" is horny it could be a myriad of different things "ME" desires.

To just enjoy chatting with others outside of the D/s realm where it's just about mutual attraction or lust, not "am I into X type of punishment" or chastity or whatever and when I say I desire to get to know someone, have mutual interests, enjoy life in general they get all snippy and buzz off. Well, not all. Ultimately, most of it is just due to the fact that I am tired and Which is fine and dandy, less time for me to waste. And I know it happens in the vanilla world but at least in the vanilla world there seem to be less of them right now. That whole ratio thing you see...# of dom women to # of sub men.

So, if you expect to see any posts regarding me getting the crazy desire to serve some man; like get his beer, wash dishes or give up the remote...don't hold your breath...LOL. I may be into being on the bottom for sexual and physical reasons...and mental break as well. Oh, and cause you can have shitloads of fun teasing someone. But as for domestication, submission and what have you there, well, that's a man's job baby *wink*

Vanilla is a good flavor though, can't deny that...LOL

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moi

needle play and my pegging addiction

*WEG*

Is this is what you are expecting? (beautiful, isn't it?)


or perhaps this? (love the view)


Actually, I had a great acupuncture session last night. My last appt was in Oct of last year or so. My SD ended up having play rehearsals so I had to nix my after work appointments. So I was in heaven...especially when he put in the head needles...yum-o-la *sigh*

And, I am now addicted to a new game I downloaded for my iPhone called Peggle...*grin*

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moi

a mighty humdinger

A week or so ago, a couple on the SMTR forum commented about how possibly prostate milking might be a myth like female ejaculation. Another gal responded saying that she has experienced (and still does) FE and a bit of a war broke out. The wife of the couple was really an asshole. Talk about close minded and full of ego. She is ineffective in expressing her opinion and came off as a fucking loser. IMHO. So, being an ejaculating type of gal myself, I started a new thread where people could discuss FE without it becoming a "I know it all and fuck you" type of arena. The couple that initiated the irritating debacle subsequently left the board as they felt she was being "hated". Oh well, if you can't take it, don't disk it out.

Really though, the point of all of this is that in honor of FE, I had myself a mighty humdinger with about 4 feet of serious squirting as a finale. Delish *grin*.

The past week or so I've been in a very sexual mood. I know part of it is due to someone I chat with here and there on Tagged and there's this lechy, fun attraction between that just trips my trigger. Completely vanilla, mildly nasty yet not in a disrespectful manner. It's fun. I think mostly is just the flirting part. Nothing outright sexual. There are a few that send me messages asking for my Yahoo ID. Good luck with that. Of course my special-ist pal keeps the fire burning too. I think though my Tagged pal fits into my headspace right now. Just desirous of being "done" and not having to do the doing. Is is appropriate perhaps for those of a more dominant disposition to take a vacation from themselves now and again? Cause lord knows I wouldn't complain!!! Subbie men really just don't get it I think. All about her...ok, so they say. But why then is it all about her doing to him? *sigh*. I'm not going there right now. Enjoying my flirting vanilla fun too much right now.

Things are quiet at home. Weather has been nasty...hot with a heat index so we've been staying inside as much as possible. Although in the morning it's downright chilly in the house. At least to me...cause I be old I suppose...*wink*. My SD and I are getting along well enough. She has psych eval coming up soon and so we can get started with all that fun stuff.

Ah well, I ought to go, I'm dripping on my computer chair *grin*

do me baby


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moi

bagged and tagged...

If you're nice to me...


I'll return the favor...

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moi